An Unsweetened Summer

We met on a warm albeit rainy summer night,
and I was anything but aware of our forthcoming plight.
You made me dizzy with your intoxicating scent,
But still I never fathomed I’d have to lament.

You clutched onto me like I was The One
And still I couldn’t contrive the worst had yet begun.
Your touch made me feel electric and alive,
And when I was without you I couldn’t survive.

No one ever had such omniscient power over me,
But when they all warned me I had to disagree.
Even when you were inexorably unwilling,
You still were incontrovertibly able to give me a chilling.

It’s hard to breathe sans you, asphyxiated beyond explanation.
But I came to and I formed a perpetual reservation.
Letting you go incapacitated me more than you’ll ever know,
And though I repressed it, it was the quite the maiming throe.

From the moment I rise till the moment I lay myself down
You envelop my entire mind, and sometimes I still want you back around.
You indefinitely stole my heart sans any effort on your part;
It was meant to be a disastrous love from the very start.

Some nights I ache for you to lie next to me just once more
But I have to deign to it; you’ll never come back through this door.
Every day my head nefariously pines over our memories,
but as these desolate days pass it’s clear you’re farther away from me.

Some nights when I miss your indelible touch, I watch as the headlights pass,
And I curse myself for being surprised that you’re not behind them; alas.
But every day I take a small step forward, to learn to breathe sans you.
So I grow en masse, knowing this woe I’ll never be able to construe.

And you’ll one day soon proclaim we were fate,
But you’ll realize I’ve already closed the gate.
And because of my conduit it’ll be far too late,
And for you this heart shall no longer wait.