Lovedrunk
Published by Ryan at July 28th, 2009So I have been extremely busy! I have so many things to do, and it’s hard to not just wanna sit around on my new laptop all day. It’s a Toshiba and it’s my love<3. Sam and I currently are not dating, but who knows where things will go from here. I can only expect the worse, and cross my fingers and hope for the best. This time he broke up with me because he wants me to learn to be happy with or without him. Isn’t that so sweet? I don’t care what people think, even my family, Sam is my first love. I am so seriously in love with him. I gave Sam my virginity and I think that’s what sealed the deal. I will admit that I did it early, but I believe that I gave it to the right boy.
I wish that he would take me out sometime. The last time we went out and really did anything was on my birthday. I want that spark again. I feel love for him like I have never felt before. As I right this, my heart is missing. It’s like my chest has caved into an abyss of pain. The Great Beyond. I can’t breathe. I can’t speak. Sometimes I can’t even sleep.
The night he broke up with me, he automatically regretted it when he got home. But he said he was doing what he knew was best for me. He said he just wants me to be happy. He told me not to worry about him getting with anyone else, because I’m the only one he wants. He said there is no one else in this town he would even consider dating. He said I’m the first person he’s really wanted to be with in over two and a half years. Well, he came over that night. He spent the night. We didn’t fall asleep till around 5am. But it was perfect, because he pulled me close to his body, and wrapped his arms around me. And we fell asleep, together, in my bed. When I woke up next to him it was like everything was perfect. I felt so amazing, so full of love, so full of Sam’s love.
It’s official, I’m lovedrunk.
