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Name: Ryan A. Holden
A.K.A: Ry, RyRy, or Rhino
Gender: Male
D.O.B: June 16th, 1992
Age: 17
Weight: 130 lbs
Height: 5′ 7″ (five-foot-seven)
Location: Illinois
Occupation: Student

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If you haven’t guessed, my name’s Ryan.  I’m from a small town in Illinois (illi-noy), right on the Mississippi River, but the plan is to move to Chicago in the Fall of ‘10, and attend Columbia and get a Bachelors or Masters Degree in Fiction Writing.  I’ve written two novels, and one memoir.  I’m gay and have been out-of-the-closet since eighth grade.  I’ve been single for ages, and made a pact to stay out of relationships my whole senior year of high school.  So far so good.  I’m rather naive about love, but I do know I have been in love before, with my First, even if it was a bad relationship.  I don’t believe in meaningless sex–it’s sacred to me–which is the reason I’ve had only one lover.  I’ve been recovering from codependency for a while, and it feels great!  I do have hope for my future, and envision meeting the love of my life in Chicago.  I’m a recovering drug addict (clean since May 27th, ‘08) so I neither smoke pot nor drink alcohol.  I obsess over things sometimes.  I enjoy solitude, not isolation.  I want to move from Chicago to New York City to L.A. and be a rich novelist, who has an amazing partner, and amazing agent; perhaps even a PA!  I’m quite nice to almost everyone, and I love meeting others.  Sometimes I’m shy, until you get to know me–then, it’s almost impossible to shut me up.  I smoke too many menthol cigarettes.  I have a $5-a-day Starbucks habit, I work at a movie theatre, and I enjoy the outdoors.  I also love blogging, social networking, texting, phone conversations, and my Samsung Impression.  Someday, I will have a BlackBerry.  I’m obsessed with the band Death Cab For Cutie and the T.V. show The O.C. I require a therapist for sanity.  I curse quite often.  I openly talk about sex/masturbation.  I’m trying to learn how to not be so public with my emotions.  I want to be mysterious.  I don’t want everyone to know everything I’m feeling.  I want to make a challenge for forthcoming lovers and friends.  My favourite book is The Catcher In The Rye.  I know more about Harry Potter than U.S. History.  I was a vegan for three years.  I tend to have older friends.  I’m quite precocious compared to others my age, and I always have to be reading a book for leisure.  I also am a big fan of self-help books.  I’m obviously a sucker for love stories.  I don’t trust many, as I am a cynical optimist; everyone, including lovers, is full of shit till he/she proves otherwise.  I consider myself a realistic narcissist.  I have two brothers, my parents are divorced, and I have two dogs.  All in all, I’m just a small-town boy with big city dreams, and shit for college money–but somehow, I’m going to make my dream as a writer come true.  I can’t imagine living any other way, trying to find myself, happiness, and true love throughout; but aren’t we all?